Depressed…kinda?
So I feel like I’ve been played. I remember when me and chris were talking I told myself I would never lose myself. I never wanted to lose my friends and I didn’t want him to be the center of my universe. One year and eight months later that’s how it is. I never felt so alone but it’s all my fault. I’ve become something I never wanted to become. Ive become DEPENDENT. I feel like I lost my friends in the process. Although I didn’t have much friends to begin with. Today I told him that we should be on a break. I don’t think it would effect his life much, but it’ll totally effect mine. The sole purpose of this break isn’t to effect his life. I feel like I need some time to create independence again. Of course he says he doesn’t want the break to happen. Honestly, idk what this break will solve really. It sounded like a good idea in my head. Maybe it’ll make Chris realize that he doesn’t need me. Because he keeps insisting that he “needs” me to be his gf and his life wouldn’t be the same. Well let’s see whats going to happen. But for now I’m. Depressed.. Kinda?
