sometimes i get off track
you know chris probably is a good guy. just not the guy for you. you should definately read the post that i made a long time ago. here are some quotes from the quote..
Sometimes the happiness and the release of anger and drama are found in the letting go. You’ll find that you can’t always be the only one putting energy into trying to make things work.
You can give and give and help and help and take crap time after time. You want to hold on because you think you might be the one to let them see the light…Unfortunately, you find you are working at different goals. When you realize it’s only you putting out energy and them sucking it from you
You can’t hold up the world, but the world can surely bring you down. You have to decide when it’s time use all that energy to walk tall and strong - alone.
Life’s lessons aren’t alway easy, choices aren’t always easy - but breathing without the extra weight of others issues makes your journey a lot easier.
you should definately read the whole thing. im not totally sure what your relationship is like bit by bit. but you know truely you can’t always be the one putting out the energy to make things work.
for me and jason i guess i gave up. im not really putting any work. were not together so why should i. he’s burned me to the point where i’m like why try. yea he hasnt done anything now but he is definately capable of doing it again. something that made me mad recently was when we were talkin and i was tellin him about how i hung out with a friend that he knows (Daniel) and daniels friend came up saying “dude im hella tired for crosstraining.” and jason was like “haha i bet he was tryna impress you so he could flirt. thats what i do” and im like omg. in my head. see this is why im not with you. i was upset and he said later that he said he “used” to do that. but not anymore. then at some point i said i dont do that to guys. and he was sayin like… “well it doesnt matter now right i cant do anything…” i should have said ‘yea i know’ and be more confident about it. but i say “i dont even try to impress guys. i dont really care that much cus im not lookin for another guy.”
anyway sorry i got off topic. but yea you know how you said he gets mad when you tell him that you think he’d be fine without you. thats reasonable. cus no one wants there bf/gf say that. cus its seems like you think they dont care about the relationship. i mean if he really was an ass he could say “yea i think id be fine” or he doesnt want to hurt your feelings in a way and say that he does care about you. ..hmm idk now much but im not really an advice giver too much cus i try getting others opinions/ words of advice as well.
All in All most say its up to me. which it is. i can take all these pieces of advice and either follow or not. so i say to you the decision is always yours. you make things happen or you dont
