oh its been like forever
hey deanne i think we mightve forgotten about our tumblr i hope you remember the email and password. anyways i really like andrew but im scared to tell him that i have feelings for him. i dont know whats holding me back other than im scared. i have days where i feel like i want him and then days where i feel like i dont want him. i think i am thinking too much. i like it when we hang out and im ok when we dont hang out. i like not having him be the priority but sometimes i want me to be his. i have conflicting thoughts in my head. i am stuck between thinking about an us that could work and not work. hes a great guy i just dont want to get into a relationship and get hurt. we have some things in common but not alot. i have fallen out of the faith. and he makes me want to go back to church. but im not too fond of catholic churches. i would go back to my other one but no one here at home has the drive to get up and go sunday mornings. i want to be a better person but i think my pride is driving me elsewhere. also jason has been bothering my brain too. i know he wasnt the best boyfriend but i wish i had some kind of connection with andrew that i used to have with jason like that unconditional love feeling.. idk im getting distracted and its late…. ill finish venting later bc oh its been like forever that we wrote on this thing.
ttyl <3 Melissa
